I don’t know whether it’s an over-sixties thing or whether these moments come to us all, whatever our age, but that fragment of a second, on waking in the night, when the veil of denial slips and the spectre of one’s ultimate end assumes a dreadful tangibility, is a sobering moment indeed. 
MARCHING, MARCHING
 
It wakes you in the night sometimes,
that feeling:
time escaping, spilling out,
and you can’t seem to stop it.
You lie there breathing in 
night air, sipping a cocktail mix
of doubt, regret, remorse, 
a bitter acid-twist of fear 
and seem to hear wind change track,
the future, not prepared to wait, 
come marching, marching
to your gate. 

I know the feeling, though I'm only 52. That said I must admit that in my case I would see it as a release.
ReplyDeleteA sombre thought, John.
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